| So my trip home was good. Saw my family and got a chance to see my friend get married...so that was awesome. Didn't get a chance to see some of the people I wanted to but I know it's all in the Lord's timing so I am patient in it.
It's always hard to go home though, not going to lie, I know I still have some things to deal with in my heart concerning my past with my family. But it's good because things are going so good and we are all getting alot closer to each other...I love it! So the family is doing well and I do miss them and my siblings but I am so glad I got to go home! |
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| So my whole life just shifted...my new schedule is now... *Wake up at midnight or 1am
*Be in the prayer room from 2am-7am
*Get whatever it is that needs to be done till work
*Go to work 1130am-3pm
*Get into bed by like 4pm And then do it all over again. It's so crazy. I feel like the Lord is giving me the option to hedge myself in even more so that I can't have any distractions...like there is not options to be distracted by...so I took it. Pray for me though..haha it's not easy just changing like this haha |
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| So the last few weeks have been anything less than interesting. I went home for Christmas and while I was at home my friend Austin and I reconnected after almost a year of not seeing each other. Well we were talking and he was explaining how he was not happy where he was and how he just wanted to start over and how he was not happy with the lifestyle he was living [he's a homosexual]. And so as he's talking I just blurted, "come to Kansas City." After saying it I realized that I really think it was the Lord saying that for me and he was rather weary of it but in the end he followed me back down to KC in his car. He went to the big youth conference that is here at the end of the year. Totally loved it and was touched by God in the midst of it. Well he was going to stay till the 18th and then go home when I went home BUT obviously that didn't work out for me to go home BUT he applied for an internship down here in the media department [which the program is 6 months long...but is something that he is interested in]. The program is free...I think this is the last time it's free...and this whole time he's living with my friend Jaye and a few other guys. Jaye use to also be a homosexual till he found the Lord and so obviously he was the first choice as to where he could stay because they have/had the same struggles and Jaye would be able to talk to him about how the Lord has totally changed him. SOO...long story short...Austin got SAVED after about a week of being here...gets encountered by the Lord and doesn't doubt that He truly IS real and then ALSO gets into the media internship and now is permanently living with Jaye [first time EVER living with men] AND!.....AND…is on the road to deliverance with thinking he’s a homosexual! Which is so crazy because ever since I’ve known him he’s had the mindset and the lifestyle and so I know it’s weird for me to see this massive change but I can’t even imagine what it’s like for him. So in writing this…would you please pray for Austin. He needs prayer right now and lots of it. And also pray for me…it’s hard to not only be supportive with this massive life switch for him but also the Lord is doing a lot in my own heart and so I feel rather strained right now. It’s good though…all of it is super good stuff but it’s the day to day walking out that can be difficult… |
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| Hey y'all so basically...it doesn't seem like I will be able to come home on the 18th after all. =/ Things didn't go as planned and so I won't be able to come. *sigh* |
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| So I'm reading Captivating [which if you have read/heard of Wild at Heart...it's the female version] and it's so good. It talks about the way God created woman and the way they are seen now-a-days and it's soo good! Gettin some healing...ok alot. And totally starting to enjoy being feminin! Yeah woohoo |
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